I actually made this video back in the summer, I think in August. Back when I was driving to and from the cabin a lot. So it’s old, but I was thinking about it again this week and thought it was appropriate to post it! I actually have a few video’s I made during the summer that never got posted because by the time I got to my computer they were old. I’ll probably be getting to them over the next few weeks. So if my hair changes dramatically from video to video know that it’s not REALLY changing all that dramatically. In fact just ignore my hair in this one altogether (it’s BAD).
So how about it? Do you miss any quality from your past? I really miss my confidence and bravery. How about an old activity? Like I miss theater, dance and music. Is there a way to bring back some of what you miss without damaging or hurting the life you have now? For me, and the stage I’m in with my family, there isn’t much in the activity department I can add, teaching theater is my commitment, raising my kids of course, running my business… Doing a play just doesn’t fit into my life now. But it still could someday. BUT I can work on my confidence and bravery. In fact I’ve been trying to work on them. Stepping out of my rut of being home all the time I’m getting out there with my blogging, Girls night out’s, blogger conferences. Sometimes it feels like I’ve gotten so used to my nonsocial husband and children that I’ve forgotten how to make and BE a friend! I keep making major faux pas, like talking too much about myself, or oneupmanship. I can hear myself doing it and I keep telling myself to stop but I can’t seem to. But each time I am around people it get’s better. I just hope I haven’t annoyed anyone too badly yet! You guys? Anything you wish you were still doing, or doing better, or simply wish you’d tried?
Great post!
Yes… I miss LOTS from when I was younger! I think I mostly miss the “no cares, no worries” part of my life.
The part of “young” life where you just kinda flew by the seat of your pants… remember??? lol.
Now it’s mostly ME… worrying ALL the time. Kids, money, house, work, school… the list goes on! It’s so tiring.
Some days I just want to go back to that life when all I had to worry about was which color eyeshadow I was going to wear that day. LOL.
Oh… the good ol’ days.
~Shelley
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Ashlee Reply:
October 25th, 2010 at 8:57 pm
eye shadow? I remember when I had time to have fun with make up! Those day’s have long since past! I’m lucky if I wear makeup once a month!
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I just stumbled upon your blog and watching this video really hit me hard. I have felt and am feeling exactly what you are talking about. My childhood was complicated and kind of exciting and we never stayed in one place for more than a couple of years, and now we live in the suburbs in a very Americana little town and we’ve been here for 6 years. I love it, for my family and my kids. It is a great place to be as a mom and a wife, but I feel like a part of me is dissipating here. It’s been a struggle to keep the non-mom in me going. I want my kids to know me as me too, and not just mom. Not to mention, I miss the us that my husband and I once were. We are really searching and working through it. I’m so in the same boat with you. I love the new life we have and the ways we have grown. I just want to pay homage to who we were and still are somewhere inside of us.
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Ashlee Reply:
December 29th, 2010 at 7:37 pm
exactly! Although my husband and I didn’t have the time to develop and US before kids, I look forward to that chance. I’m living someplace I pretty much hate because it’s good for my husband and kid’s. But I kind of wish I could live where I felt the most comfortable. I told my husband when we retire I get to pick the spot, no questions asked. In the meantime, finding how to reach ME without throwing off the balance of the family is the goal!
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